And the Clock is Ticking!

Can you hear it? *tick, tick, tick* the clock is ticking out the baby countdown. 5 more days! Imagine, I'm doing my happy pregnant, but my back is killing me dance. I've got the mini-crib up and decorated in my best neutral-gender decor. Nope, I don't know if it's a girl or boy, but I do know that I will be happy to hold this little one in my arms soon. Anyway, I've decided to do it in a green, brown and monkeys theme. That gives me time to do a girl/boy thing later. We have the names picked out, baby clothes are washed, folded and stored away. I have a cute red basket filled with newborn diapers and wipes, and I bought 4 sage green canvas baskets to act as drawers that we're putting on a bookshelf. I think I am as ready as I can be. Except . . . can I really do this? I mean, go through labor, be a good Mom (after all I have a very hard act to follow with my big sister.) and be a loving, perfect wife to my DH Ben. Well, I pray everyday that this baby will be healthy and I will be able to be the best Mommy I can be.

Happy Anniversary to Us!

I truly feel so blessed when I think of mine and Ben's marriage. We are so happy with our life and can't think of any better way to spend our life than with each other. Today we are celebrating two years of marriage!!!

I sit here and smile as I write this, so glad that I am blessed enough to be in a wonderful marriage. It makes me think of Nephi when he said that there is opposition in all things and that you must know sadness before you can know happiness. I almost wonder if the Lord's plan for my first boyfriend (whom was extremely controlling and abusive) was to make me more aware and appreciative of Ben and how wonderful he is and if it was, it totally worked. I guess that is the trick with being omnipotent, He really does know what is best for all of us. It makes me humble to realize how much the Lord must love each of us to take into consideration all of the little things in each of our lives.

Obsessing About Size!

So, I'm on a countdown until "itty bitty" is born, 5 weeks left! Whoo hoo!!! I've been told forever that I am small for being as far along as I am, but I feel like an elephant. Seriously, does that look that small? Oh well, I'm still excited and scared to be a Mom.

Ben and I went shopping this weekend and we finally picked up our carseat and stroller combo and today I washed and folded what little bit of neutral gender clothing I have. Now, I just have to wait on a bed. Mom has ordered a mini-crib and Ben is trying his best to craft a cradle. Mom's next door neighbor is quit a carpenter and he's making me a crib. I'm excited about that. He asked us to find a picture or a design we would like him to carve into the crib, I am crazy about bees (although not a ton in the crib bedding.) I was thinking about a beehive and bees.

6 weeks!

I can't believe I just have 6 weeks left before "itty bitty" is born. I admit that I am scared to death, is that a good thing? I mean, I'm going to be a Mom, responsible for someone else's life and what if I completely screw them up? HELP! Fortunately, I have great role models in my own Mom and my supermom/sister Becky.